I want to share the unfiltered reality of how I feel.
I fly for the KLM Flight Academy but that’s the only real good thing about me.
Grades are threatening to ruin my once promised career as a pilot.
I feel useless.
Grades are also pushing me to my absolute limits making me have to sacrifice hobbies, freetime for the things I love and way more.
I’ve been having su!c!de thoughts for months now. I don’t know what to do.
I hope that you understand.
Noooo! don’t Kill urself. Its not worth it. I know the pain of grads restricting you. Its happened for me years now. You are very useful!
It’s really hard to bring myself to really do anything anymore. I’m always under constant pressure to be perfect to do what I want to do later in my life. I’m just stuck. I don’t know what to do and how to bring myself to do anything.
I might delete this post as I somehow feel embarresed to publicly state how I feel seeing as it doesn’t fit with this forum at all tho I just need help.
I know. its happening to me me right now. So much work and too little time to do it. it will get better soon. I promise
I’m mid exam week to, I have 2 exams tommorow. Exam week is basixally a week where everyday u ONLY get exams, 2 exams everyday until it has covered every subject.
Hey, trust me, it is 100 percent worth it to keep going. Never give up. I don’t know where you stand with religion, and I’m not allowed to talk about it here, but if you want some advice from a Christian standpoint, I’d be happy to talk in PM’s or I could send you my discord server link (not trying to advertise, Six). As for the grades, just keep doing the best you can. Don’t let your grades define you.
I just don’t have a soon.
Exam week is basically ur deciding factor 4 times a year.
NEVER feel embarrassed for asking for help. Doesn’t matter if it doesn’t fit the forum, if you need help, you need help. It’s as simple as that.
I also made a post of it on yt tjo deleted it right after. I know I have kids watching my content and don’t want to expose them to how I feel. Thus I just feel nervous and embarresed to say it.
just like my exam week 
You just gotta study hard and look at the best in it. be an optimist.
I just see aviation as a purpose now. I wrapped my life around it for the past year snd it’s been my only motive, if I loose that I’m useless.
I understand the part about not wanting to expose kids to this stuff at a young age, but also, like I said, never feel embarrassed or nervous to share stuff like this. It’s better to be open so you can get help than to bottle up emotions inside until they explode out or get the best of you.
I’m just seeking help. Tho I’m trying to be responsible to. As exposing kids to such topics is not something I want to be known for.
Again, totally understandable. If possible and if allowed, we could move this to a group PM, or, if you have discord, could go there too.
Group PM would be nice. Should I delete this post tho? I understand there’s younger people on this forum.
It’s up to you. Everyone on here (should) be at least 13, so I would think they have a general idea of mental health. I’ll check to see if we can get a group PM going.
Okay thank you. I got perma banned off Discord a while ago cuz the Netherlands upgraded their minimum age for it from 13 to 17.
Oh wow. Did not know they did that for Discord. We should have one going here in a bit, though I may have to go for awhile.