# How I feel **URL:** \ **Category:** General Discussion\ **Created:** [November 2, 2025, 11:29pm UTC](https://ice711.discourse.group/t/how-i-feel/4916 "2025-11-02T23:29:47Z")\ **Posts on this page:** 20\ **Page:** 1
**Author:** ![Philips\_aviation](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/free1/user_avatar/ice711.discourse.group/philips_aviation/32/20104_2.png) [@Philips\_aviation](https://ice711.discourse.group/u/Philips_aviation)\ **Post date:** [November 2, 2025, 11:29pm UTC](https://ice711.discourse.group/t/how-i-feel/4916/1 "2025-11-02T23:29:47Z")
I want to share the unfiltered reality of how I feel. I fly for the KLM Flight Academy but that’s the only real good thing about me. Grades are threatening to ruin my once promised career as a pilot. I feel useless. Grades are also pushing me to my absolute limits making me have to sacrifice hobbies, freetime for the things I love and way more. I’ve been having su!c!de thoughts for months now. I don’t know what to do. I hope that you understand. ---
**Author:** ![AshiFoxxo](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/free1/user_avatar/ice711.discourse.group/ashifoxxo/32/23310_2.png) [@AshiFoxxo](https://ice711.discourse.group/u/AshiFoxxo)\ **Post date:** [November 2, 2025, 11:31pm UTC](https://ice711.discourse.group/t/how-i-feel/4916/2 "2025-11-02T23:31:02Z")
Noooo! don’t Kill urself. Its not worth it. I know the pain of grads restricting you. Its happened for me years now. You are very useful! ---
**Author:** ![Philips\_aviation](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/free1/user_avatar/ice711.discourse.group/philips_aviation/32/20104_2.png) [@Philips\_aviation](https://ice711.discourse.group/u/Philips_aviation)\ **Post date:** [November 2, 2025, 11:33pm UTC](https://ice711.discourse.group/t/how-i-feel/4916/3 "2025-11-02T23:33:47Z")
It’s really hard to bring myself to really do anything anymore. I’m always under constant pressure to be perfect to do what I want to do later in my life. I’m just stuck. I don’t know what to do and how to bring myself to do anything. ---
**Author:** ![Philips\_aviation](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/free1/user_avatar/ice711.discourse.group/philips_aviation/32/20104_2.png) [@Philips\_aviation](https://ice711.discourse.group/u/Philips_aviation)\ **Post date:** [November 2, 2025, 11:35pm UTC](https://ice711.discourse.group/t/how-i-feel/4916/4 "2025-11-02T23:35:28Z")
I might delete this post as I somehow feel embarresed to publicly state how I feel seeing as it doesn’t fit with this forum at all tho I just need help. ---
**Author:** ![AshiFoxxo](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/free1/user_avatar/ice711.discourse.group/ashifoxxo/32/23310_2.png) [@AshiFoxxo](https://ice711.discourse.group/u/AshiFoxxo)\ **Post date:** [November 2, 2025, 11:35pm UTC](https://ice711.discourse.group/t/how-i-feel/4916/5 "2025-11-02T23:35:42Z")
I know. its happening to me me right now. So much work and too little time to do it. it will get better soon. I promise ---
**Author:** ![Philips\_aviation](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/free1/user_avatar/ice711.discourse.group/philips_aviation/32/20104_2.png) [@Philips\_aviation](https://ice711.discourse.group/u/Philips_aviation)\ **Post date:** [November 2, 2025, 11:36pm UTC](https://ice711.discourse.group/t/how-i-feel/4916/6 "2025-11-02T23:36:41Z")
I’m mid exam week to, I have 2 exams tommorow. Exam week is basixally a week where everyday u ONLY get exams, 2 exams everyday until it has covered every subject. ---
**Author:** ![thehobbit](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/free1/user_avatar/ice711.discourse.group/thehobbit/32/27358_2.png) [@thehobbit](https://ice711.discourse.group/u/thehobbit)\ **Post date:** [November 2, 2025, 11:37pm UTC](https://ice711.discourse.group/t/how-i-feel/4916/7 "2025-11-02T23:37:31Z")
Hey, trust me, it is _100 percent_ worth it to keep going. Never give up. I don’t know where you stand with religion, and I’m not allowed to talk about it here, but if you want some advice from a Christian standpoint, I’d be happy to talk in PM’s or I could send you my discord server link (not trying to advertise, Six). As for the grades, just keep doing the best you can. Don’t let your grades define you. ---
**Author:** ![Philips\_aviation](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/free1/user_avatar/ice711.discourse.group/philips_aviation/32/20104_2.png) [@Philips\_aviation](https://ice711.discourse.group/u/Philips_aviation)\ **Post date:** [November 2, 2025, 11:37pm UTC](https://ice711.discourse.group/t/how-i-feel/4916/8 "2025-11-02T23:37:35Z")
I just don’t have a soon. ---
**Author:** ![Philips\_aviation](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/free1/user_avatar/ice711.discourse.group/philips_aviation/32/20104_2.png) [@Philips\_aviation](https://ice711.discourse.group/u/Philips_aviation)\ **Post date:** [November 2, 2025, 11:38pm UTC](https://ice711.discourse.group/t/how-i-feel/4916/9 "2025-11-02T23:38:20Z")
Exam week is basically ur deciding factor 4 times a year. ---
**Author:** ![thehobbit](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/free1/user_avatar/ice711.discourse.group/thehobbit/32/27358_2.png) [@thehobbit](https://ice711.discourse.group/u/thehobbit)\ **Post date:** [November 2, 2025, 11:38pm UTC](https://ice711.discourse.group/t/how-i-feel/4916/10 "2025-11-02T23:38:34Z")
NEVER feel embarrassed for asking for help. Doesn’t matter if it doesn’t fit the forum, if you need help, you need help. It’s as simple as that. ---
**Author:** ![Philips\_aviation](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/free1/user_avatar/ice711.discourse.group/philips_aviation/32/20104_2.png) [@Philips\_aviation](https://ice711.discourse.group/u/Philips_aviation)\ **Post date:** [November 2, 2025, 11:39pm UTC](https://ice711.discourse.group/t/how-i-feel/4916/11 "2025-11-02T23:39:58Z")
I also made a post of it on yt tjo deleted it right after. I know I have kids watching my content and don’t want to expose them to how I feel. Thus I just feel nervous and embarresed to say it. ---
**Author:** ![AshiFoxxo](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/free1/user_avatar/ice711.discourse.group/ashifoxxo/32/23310_2.png) [@AshiFoxxo](https://ice711.discourse.group/u/AshiFoxxo)\ **Post date:** [November 2, 2025, 11:40pm UTC](https://ice711.discourse.group/t/how-i-feel/4916/12 "2025-11-02T23:40:19Z")
just like my exam week 😭 You just gotta study hard and look at the best in it. be an optimist. ---
**Author:** ![Philips\_aviation](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/free1/user_avatar/ice711.discourse.group/philips_aviation/32/20104_2.png) [@Philips\_aviation](https://ice711.discourse.group/u/Philips_aviation)\ **Post date:** [November 2, 2025, 11:41pm UTC](https://ice711.discourse.group/t/how-i-feel/4916/13 "2025-11-02T23:41:25Z")
I just see aviation as a purpose now. I wrapped my life around it for the past year snd it’s been my only motive, if I loose that I’m useless. ---
**Author:** ![thehobbit](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/free1/user_avatar/ice711.discourse.group/thehobbit/32/27358_2.png) [@thehobbit](https://ice711.discourse.group/u/thehobbit)\ **Post date:** [November 2, 2025, 11:42pm UTC](https://ice711.discourse.group/t/how-i-feel/4916/14 "2025-11-02T23:42:36Z")
I understand the part about not wanting to expose kids to this stuff at a young age, but also, like I said, never feel embarrassed or nervous to share stuff like this. It’s better to be open so you can get help than to bottle up emotions inside until they explode out or get the best of you. ---
**Author:** ![Philips\_aviation](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/free1/user_avatar/ice711.discourse.group/philips_aviation/32/20104_2.png) [@Philips\_aviation](https://ice711.discourse.group/u/Philips_aviation)\ **Post date:** [November 2, 2025, 11:44pm UTC](https://ice711.discourse.group/t/how-i-feel/4916/15 "2025-11-02T23:44:19Z")
I’m just seeking help. Tho I’m trying to be responsible to. As exposing kids to such topics is not something I want to be known for. ---
**Author:** ![thehobbit](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/free1/user_avatar/ice711.discourse.group/thehobbit/32/27358_2.png) [@thehobbit](https://ice711.discourse.group/u/thehobbit)\ **Post date:** [November 2, 2025, 11:45pm UTC](https://ice711.discourse.group/t/how-i-feel/4916/16 "2025-11-02T23:45:23Z")
Again, totally understandable. If possible and if allowed, we could move this to a group PM, or, if you have discord, could go there too. ---
**Author:** ![Philips\_aviation](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/free1/user_avatar/ice711.discourse.group/philips_aviation/32/20104_2.png) [@Philips\_aviation](https://ice711.discourse.group/u/Philips_aviation)\ **Post date:** [November 2, 2025, 11:46pm UTC](https://ice711.discourse.group/t/how-i-feel/4916/17 "2025-11-02T23:46:13Z")
Group PM would be nice. Should I delete this post tho? I understand there’s younger people on this forum. ---
**Author:** ![thehobbit](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/free1/user_avatar/ice711.discourse.group/thehobbit/32/27358_2.png) [@thehobbit](https://ice711.discourse.group/u/thehobbit)\ **Post date:** [November 2, 2025, 11:47pm UTC](https://ice711.discourse.group/t/how-i-feel/4916/18 "2025-11-02T23:47:47Z")
It’s up to you. Everyone on here (should) be at least 13, so I would think they have a general idea of mental health. I’ll check to see if we can get a group PM going. ---
**Author:** ![Philips\_aviation](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/free1/user_avatar/ice711.discourse.group/philips_aviation/32/20104_2.png) [@Philips\_aviation](https://ice711.discourse.group/u/Philips_aviation)\ **Post date:** [November 2, 2025, 11:48pm UTC](https://ice711.discourse.group/t/how-i-feel/4916/19 "2025-11-02T23:48:35Z")
Okay thank you. I got perma banned off Discord a while ago cuz the Netherlands upgraded their minimum age for it from 13 to 17. ---
**Author:** ![thehobbit](https://yyz2.discourse-cdn.com/free1/user_avatar/ice711.discourse.group/thehobbit/32/27358_2.png) [@thehobbit](https://ice711.discourse.group/u/thehobbit)\ **Post date:** [November 2, 2025, 11:49pm UTC](https://ice711.discourse.group/t/how-i-feel/4916/20 "2025-11-02T23:49:32Z")
Oh wow. Did not know they did that for Discord. We should have one going here in a bit, though I may have to go for awhile. [Next page](https://ice711.discourse.group/t/how-i-feel/4916.md?page=2)